Upon finding myself in a never ending cycle of gloom and depression, I have decided to take a stand. Come May 1st, 2011, I am going to embark upon what I am calling a life experiment. This experiment will test my resolve and dedication to something I, though have as of late been lacking in, utterly believe in and love. This is the idea of God’s promise to all who will stand up out of the murky depths and choose to be freed from their chains. I know that I can accomplish anything I set my mind to, but I am horrendously lacking in any sense of consistency and perseverance. This is why my experiment will last one year, and I am calling it, My Year to Salvation. The idea behind this is that I have to completely understand that the past is the past, and to not let others projections toward me lessen my resolve in what it is that I want to accomplish.
I have found myself in a great pattern of dwindling away, and I cannot dwindle any longer. I have a schedule that I am going to rigorously stick to, and I have a series of goals and things that I want to accomplish within this one year mark, they include completely honoring and magnifying my callings in the church, getting back to the temple, finding a job that I love, completing a semester of college with good grades, getting my health, physically, mentally and spiritually back on track, overcoming my depression, and lastly within my major goal list finding and becoming a part of a healthy, and meaningful relationship. This is my resolve letter to those who read: I will write everyday in my Blog illustrating my progress starting with Day 1, May 1st, and I will, with the help of others arise out of my sleep and touch my potential in this life. I am going to do what it is that I was meant to do, I am determined, I am able, I can overcome my trials and hardships. This is it, I will change my life into something beautiful, and become freed from my sorrows and gloom. I pray for help, I pray that Heavenly Father will see my desire and send angels to help me. I love the Gospel, I love my life, and I will live both of these things to the very best of my ability. Thank you everyone who has helped me this far, I am eternally grateful for your support and help. Thank you, and until May 1st, goodbye.
