When I was young I came to a very profound conclusion. I don’t know why I had this thought and I was probably somewhere around ten when I thought this thing for the first time, and for some reason it has stuck with me all of these years. This conclusion was that I was either going to die young or I was going to live forever.
Now, as funny as that sounds something inside of me has always believed that, and there is nothing I can do about that belief either way. I’ve decided that it’s becoming a little too late for me to die young now and I’ve passed up too many opportunities to already, so that signifies in my mind that I am simply going to live forever, to never taste of death.
I take a deep breath and as strangely scriptural and funnily impossible that vista seems there is nothing in me that doesn’t believe it. I kind of cringe at it slightly though but I think I only do because of an overly cultural saturation of belief that surrounds the prospect of death and finally being able to rest in peace. I yearn to be at peace but death is not what brings that gift to a soul. Peace comes from living and from becoming whole with the patterns of life that we’ve been dealt.
The idea that death automatically solves all of the problems for the deceased is a slightly skewered one. I assume that that belief originated to bring comfort to those who’ve lost loved ones; that comfort is indeed a good thing but why has the general populace’s belief not gone farther beyond that idea and passed the thought that everyone gets to rest for all of eternity?
I believe that the hope of something after we’ve passed on trumps out the origin of fear that there is nothing after this life and it is hope that has caused humanity to discover this eternal truth of continuing life. It is hope that turns to faith and faith is a knowledge, it’s just that the hope of this continuing life is such a beautiful truth that one might conclude that that thing is it and there is no need to delve any deeper beyond that reassurance, and I say it might be that looming possibility of fear that hinders people’s desire to understand more about the life hereafter, for it might mean more responsibility in this life.
That is naturally how we humans think and operate isn’t it? When there is a devastating occurrence we search for something, but what is it that we search for? For the most part I believe we search for something that is true to bring us comfort but we also at the same time act as a sort of negotiator between our soul and our body. We subconsciously balance and weigh how much truth is enough for our immediate comfort without implementing too much responsibility upon ourselves. And life after death is that perfect median of comfort that there really is something after we die but we weigh that idea in our minds and conclude that there is no way to know anything more about it so as to impede the responsibility of acting appropriately in this life.
But I say that our eternal stance doesn’t change when we die, only our way of existing. We are a soul, a soul of infinite depth and passion, a soul able to feel things that you’ve never fathomed, a soul that can be tarnished by guilt and pain yet can be cleansed from the sufferings of eternity. We are beings beyond description yet it is my conviction that the deepest parts of the gospel, concerning the most remarkably established principles of even our potential and even Godhood are not as completely confusing and un-understandable as I think we’ve let ourselves believe.
When I was younger I thought that there was no way to ever fathom the extents of the Atonement. I understand that it is so incredible and beyond everything that I’ve ever felt but I think being in the mindset of thinking that no one can ever comprehend its infinite passion is a rut of a way of thinking. I believe that we can understand so much more about God and how He actually functions in a literal, real way.
“There is a science of the soul,
And one of the plan God has for us,
It’s not that we can’t understand,
We just on it haven’t thought enough.”
It is un-real, but when your reality uncovers its face you can look into the eyes of truth itself, and truth becomes your reality in the midst of a widely accepted ocean of deception, and the thing about this life is that we are surrounded by deception and those who would have us believe those deceptions. So when truth becomes your reality you start to see things that are to others un-real. This thing is what I believe to be a portion of what is called a paradigm shift, a change in the way we used to understand things, and it is this very concept that causes me to write about how we all live in a different world even though our bodies are all here on Earth.
We all have immensely conflicting thoughts and ideas in the way we perceive the reality around us, some of insignificant and trivial differences but the question I ask is, are all of these conflicting perceptions equal in their stances when it comes to the principles of the universe? If that is the case, then no one is right and no one is wrong in their ideas and if that is the case then there is no sin and if there is no sin then there is no righteousness which means there is no God or devil which then means we don’t have joy or pain which means to me that we simply do not exist at all.
This is the paradox of the universe, if there is anything at all, there must be some type of right and wrong, light and dark, good versus evil, God and Satan and all of the existing elements in-between (us) swaying back and forth between the two. I say there are things that are true and there are things that are not true, that’s what I say and if that truly is the case then there must be different levels of truth in our actions, and the way we perceive what is good or not good around us must utterly be lightened or dimmed by the things we choose to do. If we are continually doing one act of something that is not true we might have convinced ourselves that it is not a bad thing to do when in the spectrum and perception of the unchanging universal principles of truth it is. Our light in that one thing has been dimmed so we can’t understand our un-enlightenment in that thing until what? Until we receive some type of information from another and then choose to have faith enough in trying to change our way in that action.
This thing is why we need to be submissive, because when we are not submissive then we can never change for good. When we are submissive, act on that hope, and have faith then is when we start to see a higher plain of reality, not, and I say not merely a different, equal plain of reality but a higher more enlightened plain of being. We all live in a different world based off of our understanding of truth and enlightenment and willingness to be submissive to those truths and enlightenments once we’ve been introduced to them.
Everyone doesn’t die, that is only a misconception by the populace’s general understanding of living.
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